Part 1: The Top 5 Hardest Things About College
1. The Homework
In high school, I was blessed with the ability to slack off in class, take tons of naps, socialize to my hearts content, never study, and still pass with a 3.8 GPA. I sure enjoyed it then, but I'm kicking myself now. I forget that I need to pay attention always ("Constant vigilance!" - Mad Eye Moody). I have to spend hours on my homework. I need to study. It was a total wake-up call. It's easily the hardest thing about my college life right now.
2. Living Away From Home
My mother isn't around to wake me up in the morning if I sleep through my alarm, my step-dad isn't cooking wonderful meals at night, and I don't have all the familiarity of home. Don't get me wrong, I love college, it' just takes some getting used to.
3. Living With Another Person
I'm an only child (if you don't count my step-siblings) so I've had my own room my whole life. No one to keep me up, no one to bug me, no one to try and live with. It's definitely a different experience, but I also really like that I'm able to go through it. I guess if I ever get married, I'll need to have the skills to live in harmony with someone else.
4. Making Friends
I'm a naturally shy, self conscious person, so making friends was pretty difficult for me to do. Don't worry, I succeeded, and I'm still doing it, too, but man, it was scary the first couple of days. It's not like I never made new friends in high school, I certainly did, but I always had my central group of friends to hover back to. It was safe and familiar, and this college thing has been scary and unknown.
5. Lack of Sleep
I should have put this one as number 1, but seeing as how I'm running off a very small amount of sleep, I'm too tired and lazy to change the numbering around. So we'll just say that this list is in no particular order. I'm exhausted. I get very little sleep due to homework and my roommate being loud at night, and then during the day, it takes me longer to get my homework done because I'm so tired and easily distracted... quite the vicious circle. I'm hopped up on caffeine and the natural energy from fruit right now. I'm sure that eventually, I'll get used to running off less sleep than I'm familiar with, but right now, it kinda sucks.
Looking back at all of these, I realize that the common factor in all of them is simply the unfamiliarity, the unknown paths that I'm trekking down. That reminds me of one of my favorite quotes of all time: "It’s the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more." - Dumbledore
But why is that? Why is the unknown so freaking scary? I have no idea, but I do know this: fear can be overcome, and better yet, embraced. I prefer to embrace my fear and my anxiety, and then charge head on into the situation at hand.
I think that's what college is about. Charging into the unknown and coming out a better person.